I generally don’t wake up on Mother’s Day to breakfast in bed or hand-colored cards.
I have five children, but they are not with me as this day begins. Here are all the reasons why:
- My first-born, Casey Shay, died five months into my pregnancy.
- My second and fourth, Emily and Elizabeth, are with their dad this morning, since we are divorced.
- My third and fifth died early in the pregnancies.
I am lucky that I still have my mom. I know many of you no longer do.
And there are a lot of empty nesters who will make do with a phone call.
Some moms will visit their children’s graves today.
So I’m thinking of all of you whose Mother’s Day is not, never was, or no longer is that perfectly imagined day with little ones bringing you burnt toast and jumping on your pillows.
We still have something to celebrate. The moms and grandmothers who once held us tight.
The babies we carried, if only for a little while. Or the children we loved and raised as long as could.
It’s still an important day.
And I’m holding out my hand to you with love and understanding.
The first notable April 28 came in 1998, the day I learned my first baby had died.
I was teaching high school and the students were terribly excited to find out if I was having a boy or a girl. I was firmly instructed to call them on the journalism room phone the moment I knew. I only had a few more weeks to be with them, as I had resigned from my position to be a mom. School was almost out, and I wasn’t sure I would get back to teaching again (I never did.)
I didn’t call them. The sonogram showed a still baby, floating in his fluid. Lost to us.
We also had no answers. We just had to find the courage to do it again.
By April 28 of the next year, we had a baby girl, whose entrance to the world was stressful and constantly in question. But she arrived all the same, and just turned 15 a week ago. Her presence has made all the Aprils easier to bear.
By a strange collision of scheduling and timing, the next April 28 I was scheduled for surgery to correct my insides so that we could try to have a normal pregnancy in the future, without the risk of these late term losses, undersized babies, and such hardship. I remember distinctly the moment the nurses forced me to take off baby Casey’s memory bracelet, which I had worn daily for two years, and even during his sister’s birth by c-section. I cried all the way until the anesthesia knocked me out.
In April 2002, I was crazy pregnant with another girl. This pregnancy had not gone any more smoothly, a set of twins with one miscarrying at ten weeks. The other, Elizabeth, seemed fine. We would not learn until she was six that she would face challenges based on her time in the womb. They tried to schedule her c-section for April 28 and got a little miffed when I refused to agree. They sent the doctor in to convince me, but when he realized the date, he said, “Let’s neither of us show up.” He opted to work a different day, for me. So Elizabeth was born May 1.
Sometimes I think that after all these years, April 28 will have no power over me. That I can look back and think — it’s just a date.
But it’s not. It never will be. And for those of you who have traveled this road, you know what I mean. Some moments on our life’s calendar are never forgotten, can never be simplified or erased or overwritten by other events. And we wouldn’t want them that way.
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But it’s going to be lots of fun. I love all the new options out there for creating web sites. Getting creative on things like this is one of the best parts of my job!
I’m super duper busy finishing out my Magic Mayhem series. This last book for this trilogy is the hardest, because it’s about a ten-year-old with epilepsy, same as my daughter Elizabeth. We’ve worked together on this book. But it’s difficult to have your child describe to you what it’s like to have these dark spaces she can’t remember, black periods before and after her seizures.
But while I’m doing all this (plus preparing to dive into Forever Sheltered in about a month), a book I sort of abandoned got picked up in a 10-book boxed set of paranormal romances!
Authors put together these sets to increase visibility and share fans. Unlike my super-emotional and sad books, my novel in the bundle is light and funny. It’s a voice I set aside when my Forever series took off. My readers want to cry, not laugh!
But I let this book go into the bundle. There’s so many great authors in it. And at 99 cents, you can’t beat it for having some choices for your next sleepless night or long trip or need for escape.
I hope some of you will try it out. My novel in it is called The Passion Cure, about an enchantress who discovers not only does her family’s pet ferret talk, but it delights to inform her that she’s an outcast in her world, a Nix with no powers of her own.
It’s a romp, and an experiment. I had a good time writing it. I have outlined more books in that story world, but I’m not sure I will actually write them since everyone wants the Forever books!
So if you want to read my book The Passion Cure, pick up this bundle as that may be the only way you’ll ever get it!
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UPDATE: Congrats to Christy/Kikka for winning the ebooks!
It’s time to do some blog hoppin’ to win some prizes! Every blog on the hop has prizes, including MINE! HERE! YES!
You can enter the grand prize for a $100 Amazon gift card via the Rafflecopter below, plus you can comment on this post for a chance to win an e-book two-pack: Both ebooks in the Forever Series will go to the winner!
If you aren’t sure what to say in the comment, tell me your favorite Book Boyfriend name because I have to give poor Jenny a boyfriend soon — it’s time that girl settled DOWN!
There are lots of amazing books in this hop. Click one of the blog images at the bottom to keep hopping. You’ll find some great romance reading and enter to win more awesome stuff!
There is no way to list all the bloggers, fans, and groups who have been instrumental in this amazing release week for the Forever Series. But I’m going to put as many of the giveaways in here as I can. If you are a Facebook fan of mine, or follow me on Twitter, or are on my mailing list, you can easily check that off and be entered. You can also share the love of some of these amazing sites and authors who are helping me!
a Rafflecopter giveaway
Over 100 blogs are giving away a copy of my book. I’m picking a few at random (see the whole list here):
If you spot another one — add it as a comment so people can enter!
It’s been a TOUGH few weeks. Our family got hit with a very serious strain of the flu, and particularly for my youngest, Elizabeth, who has many health issues, it was frightening.
So the sequel to my book gets to go out with little to no promotion. We’ll just see how it goes!
But here’s a teaser…(don’t hate me.) 🙂
As promised, I’m releasing the opening pages of the sequel as widely as possible!
Enjoy the read, and remember to sign up to win prizes as part of the Forever Loved cover reveal on Dec. 2! The Street Team will be awarding gift cards, custom swag, and signed books to fans who post anywhere online — Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Pinterest, and yes even MySpace. (Deanna is there too!)
Oh, it’s that panic time! National Novel Writing Month, the challenge to write 50,000 words in 30 days, is only four days away!
I know lots of writers are pantsters, and just write as they go. I find if I try it, I fail.
So I’m sharing my favorite quick-and-dirty way of getting some structure in place before I start writing a novel.
It’s called the Nine Box Method. It was first referenced on Verla Kay’s Blue Boards (which are now owned by SCBWI) and has been posted about by Query Tracker and other writer-centric blogs.
I have PDFs for you!
The first one is the nine box with the explanation of what to put in each box. The idea is that you make boxes that touch connect their content in order to write a cohesive story that has tension, pacing, and flow in place.
The second one contains three sample Nine Box Grids for three popular movies: The Help, Despicable Me, and Monsters, Inc. They might help you see how the nine box plays out in real stories. (I made these myself, so any bad conclusions are my own.)
The third one is blank so you can fill it in for YOUR project.
When I do my novels now, I used the Nine Box, Blake Snyder’s Beat Sheet, and Joseph Campbell’s The Hero’s Journey to work out my story in multiple ways. By the time I’ve filled out all these structures, I have a solid sense of where my story begins, where it’s going, and where it’s going to end, which helps me avoid giving up, slowing down, or writing myself into a hole.
It has been the craziest two weeks ever. I am humbled, grateful, and blessed by the response to my new book Forever Innocent.
A couple screen shots say everything:
Reached #46 on Amazon’s hot new release list, right next to my hero writer Nora Roberts.
Apparently hit #4 in iTunes Australia while I was sleeping last night. I’m still #10 this morning.
Hit #112 on Amazon, top 10/11 in categories.
Best of all, we’ve made it halfway to our goal for this book in just 10 days. Whether that mean adopting a baby (which is SO expensive) or expanding the house to adopt older children siblings in need of home, we’re getting there.
This is a miracle, and absolutely thanks to you all, my friends and readers.
I am excited to move forward with the next book Forever Loved and to share it with you. Sign up to read excerpts as it goes along.