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Forever Christmas, my rainbow baby book, has arrived

It’s here!    👶

My mission to help grieving moms through story has come to its conclusion! The rainbow baby is often the end of the grief journey, even though losing a child to miscarriage or stillbirth or infant death is forever part of your life story, one that will create feelings of sorrow at unexpected moments for always.

Today we celebrate rainbows and see how far we’ve come.

The FOREVER books
A USA Today bestselling series

Six years ago, Corabelle and Gavin’s journey into family began with an unplanned pregnancy in high school. Their baby was born prematurely with a heart condition, and died at seven days old. FOREVER INNOCENT (which is a free download) takes you through this journey.

The tragedy splits the couple, and the fallout from their choices leads them both back to the college they had originally chosen before the pregnancy. There, Gavin realizes Corabelle is the love of his life and he must make things right.

If you only read Book 1 and this final Book 6 of the series, you would get a fairly complete picture of what they go through. The middle four books deal with other complications as well as friends they make along they way.

Book 6, FOREVER CHRISTMAS takes you through the frightening second pregnancy for Corabelle, with all its tender hope and debilitating fear.

Rainbow babies are called the beauty after the storm. For anyone who has been touched by loss, these stories are an honest portrayal of how you live through the worst, and finally, the best days of your life.

You can get FOREVER INNOCENT for free here:
Amazon – http://deannaroy.com/ForeverInnocentZon
BN Free – http://deannaroy.com/ForeverInnocentBN
Kobo – http://deannaroy.com/ForeverInnocentKB
Google Play – http://deannaroy.com/ForeverInnocentGP
iTunes – http://deannaroy.com/ForeverInnocentIT

And the new release FOREVER CHRISTMAS is now available here:

iBooks: http://apple.co/2l9Ak84
BN/Nook: http://bit.ly/ForeverCNook
Amazon: http://amzn.to/2gZAmus
Kobo: http://bit.ly/ForCKobo
Google Play: http://bit.ly/ForCG

Thank you to EVERYONE who changed their profile picture to use the Forever Christmas frame this week. There are so many rainbow babies in the world. Over 100 of them have dedications in my book.

Rainbow Babies, Bonus Books, and the Ugly Cry Queen

When I lost my first baby, I didn’t think at the time I might one day write about it.

I was so alone in the world. I had just quit my job to be a mom. My Bunco group had turned into an endless series of baby showers for its members. That was treacherous territory now. So I quit. I spent my days in solitude.

My husband was bewildered, as many spouses are, at the length and depth and breadth of my grief. I half-heartedly looked for other jobs, but mostly I planted flowers and tried to make peace with something that would never, ever make sense.

By the time I got pregnant with Emily, I was more than a little dead to optimism. There was definitely a point when I started bleeding that I completely gave up hope and assumed she was dead. (Spoiler: she’s a freshman in college now.)

I have a public journal that I kept with her, as by that time my mission to help others who had lost pregnancies was in full swing at  www.pregnancyloss.info. (If you want to see some amazeballs 90s web work, you can visit my original site on the WayBack — sadly the animated GIFs and MIDI music did not survive the backups.)

It’s painful to read those hopeless entries. I did not believe motherhood would ever be something that happened to me.

When I wrote Forever Innocent, this juxtaposition of terrible tragedy and the youthfulness of Gavin and Corabelle propelled the book into the sort of bestseller territory I hadn’t anticipated. When I finished the series with Forever Family, I really felt we were done telling that story.

But I’d skipped something important, something the women who have been with me literally from my own hard days were quick to point out. I did not have a rainbow pregnancy depicted in all its ups and downs.

So this year, I did that. I added a book to the series that begins with Corabelle’s decision to move on, forget about pregnancy, and try to live a life without that tender hope. It moves through the roller coaster of finding out that she will have to live out her fear a second time. And all the way through the inevitable hardships that come when you are that scared for that long.

Because, trust me, nine months is a really long time to be terrified.

For moms who just want to go through that process with Corabelle, it’s fine to skip straight to Forever Christmas. It stands alone in that sense. For those who want to see her and Gavin’s entire journey, it’s best to start at the beginning with  Forever Innocent .

Book one is a free download, so it’s easy to start. I hope by the time you get through the six books, whether baby loss has touched your life personally, or you are just up for an ugly cry that becomes the happiest Christmas of all, these characters are more than just a book to you. They are trusted friends who show you the path so many families must walk, and that your empathy and understanding will guide you when moments like this come to pass in your home, your extended family, your friends, or your social media feed.

It’s been quite a journey. I shed a whole lot of tears while writing these pages, and I can only hope I got it right.

Arriving Dec. 14, 2018
Just in time for the holidays

Forever Christmas

They tell mothers like me, a woman whose baby has died, that a new pregnancy will bring a rainbow baby. You know, the beauty after the storm.

What they don’t say is how hard it’s going to be. How scary. How emotional. That at the lowest point, I will completely give up hope.

I do have a saving grace. Several, in fact. Gavin, my hot, sex-on-the-kitchen-counter, loves-me-on-my-bad-days husband. He’s been with me since the beginning. And I have Jenny and Tina, girlfriends I met along the way. They’re the good ones. The ones who bring you Kleenex and vodka.

But I also have you. Tens of thousands of you who read my story and have cheered me on, waiting for me and Gavin to have a healthy baby. It helps me, knowing you’re out there, waiting, hoping. Some of you have lost babies yourselves. You know what I’m about to endure.

So it’s time for the happiest happy ending of all. What better time than at Christmas?

(Don’t forget your tissues. And maybe the vodka too.)

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Forever Christmas can be read as a standalone, but if this is your first introduction to the Forever novels, I recommend reading Forever Innocent to understand their backstory.

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The new series of dance standalones is here!

I really had to push myself these last six months to write. I had a child graduate high school, another child take a hard turn with her health (we’ll be at Dell Children’s Hospital all next week), and an adoption to finish (big day should be June 16!)

But push I did, and today book FOUR of my new series comes out.

To celebrate the fourth book, book 1 of the series is on sale. If you haven’t picked it up yet, to see the other side of adoption, when a young girl must give up her baby, but finds a desperate, secret way to see her child a few years later, this is a good time while it’s 99 cents!

Don’t miss the rafflecopter giveaway down below!

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Book 1: Forbidden Dance

on sale for 99 cents this week

She was hidden from the world. Then he arrived.
An emotional new novel from six-time USA Today bestselling author Deanna Roy

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For four years, I’ve lived in almost total seclusion. Homeschooled, forbidden from social media, seeing no one other than the dancers at Dreamcatcher Academy, where I teach ballet to little girls in wheelchairs.

Then Blitz arrives.

He’s the disgraced host of Dance Blitz, a bawdy reality show where Blitz sleeps with as many dancers as possible while looking for his perfect partner.

At least he was. A few weeks ago, he got kicked off his own show.

He’s at my academy for a publicity stunt, and my wheelchair ballerinas are his ticket back into the public’s good graces.

I intend to hate him and stay as far away as possible. But when he looks at me, I can’t resist. Before I realize what’s happened, we’re sneaking into back rooms, dancing, kissing, planning dates away from the cameras and the wrath of my family.

But I’m afraid. I have a secret at the academy, a small, wonderful, terrible secret, and if I stay with Blitz, the world will find out.

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Book 2: Wounded Dance

The quiet happy life Livia has built with Blitz is threatened by a man from her past.


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Book 3: Wicked Dance

Livia and Blitz think they’ve left their reality TV show days behind, but the three jilted finalists have other ideas.

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Book 4: Tender Dance

out today!

Livia’s secret is exposed to the world and her life shatters. Uprooted from everything and everyone she has ever known, a door opens in the form of a traveling ballet company. But then there is Blitz. For the first time, she must ask herself, what is it that she has always wanted?

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There’s also a rafflecopter prize for this release! Don’t forget to enter!

 
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The Book That Almost Never Was — Elektra Chaos

When I first started writing Elektra Chaos, things hadn’t gotten bad yet. My daughter Elizabeth, who is on the cover, had been diagnosed with epilepsy for four years at that point, and we had the seizures under control.

She was still going through a lot, as the medicine made her gain a lot of weight, and her previous friends had dumped her. But some of the other girls with a little more weight to them had picked her up and dusted her off, so we were getting through fifth grade.

I was about halfway through this book, which features a girl with epilepsy — the story Elizabeth wanted me to tell — when everything fell apart. The seizures returned. She couldn’t go through a week without one. Her life was regularly in danger as she tried to do normal things like climb playscapes or go swimming.

Then the medicine quit working completely. We tried another, and this one made her sick and listless. She lost an incredible amount of body weight in a dramatic few months. She couldn’t eat. Her skin got wounds that wouldn’t heal. I began to think she wasn’t going to come out of this. I began to wonder if my future was one without my little girl.

So I quit writing the book.

I still cry just thinking about those days.

With the help of our pediatrician and neurologist, we did get it turned around. We had three good years in middle school before everything started to fall apart again last summer. We’re still in that hard place, and to have the finished book come out while I’m back in darker days hasn’t been easy. Those who follow our story over on Facebook know she was discovered at Disneyland in a puddle, unconscious, having a seizure. They are a constant right now, anytime things get too loud or she feels off. We’re struggling to find a new way to control them.

But the book is here, and it’s important to us.

Elizabeth wanted to see an adventure story where the girl has seizures, and saves the world anyway.

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In this magic adventure novel, Elektra’s epilepsy is important, but not everything. It’s a story about a girl who thinks she’s meant to be the bully, the bad guy, and that makes it easier for her to handle the weirdness that comes with having such a difficult, embarrassing problem like seizures.

But suddenly, her magic power is asking more of her. To change. To be the hero she’s never thought she could be. At least she aims to try.

The book is written for 9-12 year olds, a lot like the original Harry Potter or early Rick Riordan books. I’m pleased to be done with it, but even MORE glad when my little Elektra at home finds a stable place again.

You can also see the other books in the series.

 

You can read more about Elizabeth in these blog posts.

After two years, a NEW series is coming at ya

It’s been a crazy two years. Taking adoption classes. Getting licensed to be a foster home. Getting children. Struggling to help them. Really getting towed under with the stress of it all. My mom dying right in the middle of our crisis. Mom, come on! I need ya!

It was a lot.

But we’re getting close to adoption day, things are going pretty well, and other than a few bumps here and there, our lives are a lot like the lives of any parents raising any family.

And so, I have for you all, five new books coming.

Yup, five.

Today’s the reveal of the covers, beautifully made by Sarah at Okay Creations (two years ago! She’s probably forgotten me!)

I’m here to show you these fantastic covers and to give away prizes and to CELEBRATE that we’ve gotten through this amazing, terrible, wonderful, stressful, painful, super-human period of our lives.

Thank you for being fans through all this. I mean it.

Thank you.

There were times when a nice comment from a reader was the only good thing to happen to me in a week (man, now I’m crying. I’m supposed to be the ones making YOU guys cry!)

So here it all is. Do the Rafflecopter. Share. Jump up and down. Because I’m BACK. (Did anything big happen in the world while I was gone? LOL.)

 

Forbidden Dance

Book 1: Forbidden Dance

Coming March 28, 2017 * Preorder Available
She was hidden from the world. Then he arrived.
An emotional new novel from six-time USA Today bestselling author Deanna Roy

Kindle iBooks Kobo Google Play Nook

 

For four years, I’ve lived in almost total seclusion. Homeschooled, forbidden from social media, seeing no one other than the dancers at Dreamcatcher Academy, where I teach ballet to little girls in wheelchairs.

Then Blitz arrives.

He’s the disgraced host of Dance Blitz, a bawdy reality show where Blitz sleeps with as many dancers as possible while looking for his perfect partner.

At least he was. A few weeks ago, he got kicked off his own show.

He’s at my academy for a publicity stunt, and my wheelchair ballerinas are his ticket back into the public’s good graces.

I intend to hate him and stay as far away as possible. But when he looks at me, I can’t resist. Before I realize what’s happened, we’re sneaking into back rooms, dancing, kissing, planning dates away from the cameras and the wrath of my family.

But I’m afraid. I have a secret at the academy, a small, wonderful, terrible secret, and if I stay with Blitz, the world will find out.

Five Full Length Standalones

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Fans can win prizes, including a limited-edition Dreamcatcher Dance Academy duffel bag, by being on the Facebook page, the reader group, the email list, on Twitter, or Goodreads.

 

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One MILLION views? Really! Let’s give some stuff away!

I’m still sitting here in shock looking at this.

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We’re ThisClose to getting to 1 million views for my series video on Facebook. That’s so stinking crazy! I keep falling out of my chair!

So I’ve got a BUNCH O’ GIVEAWAYS!

Giveaway ONE is for the BIG READERS to buy whatever books they want.

  • Kindle Fire!
  • Amazon Gift Cards!
  • iTunes gift Cards!

Giveaway TWO is for DEANNA FANS.

  • Rare swag set with a one-of-a-kind bracelet with a miniature Forever Innocent book and a sterling silver butterfly.
  • Complete signed set of the entire Forever series.
  • Signed set of the first book of FOUR Deanna series under all her pen names!

Feel free to enter both — I separated them so that the big fans would get a better shot at the swag and book one! Can’t wait to see that bracelet on somebody! <3

GIVEAWAY ONE: Kindle Fire and Gift Cards

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GIVEAWAY TWO: Bracelet, rare swag, signed books!

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Did you miss the VIDEO?

HERE IT IS! 🙂

 

 

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Forever Innocent

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Have you ever heard a really sad song and know it describes your life exactly?

That’s me.

But it’s not just one. It’s every sad song. The one where you plan a lifetime with your absolute soulmate, then he leaves you.

The one where you’re making your way in the world, then everything shatters.

And the one where you love a tiny little person with all your heart.

And he dies.

I wish I could say I don’t blame Gavin for leaving when things got hard, but I do. He took off during our baby’s funeral and I didn’t see him again for four years.

But when fate throws us back together, despite everything — his mistakes, my secrets, our failure — one thing is perfectly clear.

Our love song still has one more verse.

Five full-length novels

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“A remarkable story about love, loss, and moving forward.”
— Burning Impossibly Bright Blog

“An everlasting hope that love can conquer all.”
— Hesperia Loves Books

“Put this on your TBR list and bump it to the top.”
Eat Sleep Read Blog

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Are you ready for me to blog about ALL THE THINGS?

Because, I am.

Because I just got my head above water again.

I’ve been on a journey. An important one. A super big one. But it got harder than we ever thought it would. And then, a few months ago, it became impossible.

We are still adopting our little boy. Things are on a different track than they were, but we’re sorting through what will be the best for all the members of our family.

And during all this, my mom died unexpectedlymomweb in her sleep. This crisis on top of the ongoing one put us underwater. There was so little keeping us going.

But I’m here now. Back. Hopefully able to talk to fans, and write books without dying from the pressure of even getting a few paragraphs down. And so, looking at all I missed talking about, to catch up the blog, here is what happened:

My trilogy for kids is being released by Spellbound River Press!  Jinnie Wishmaker has already been re-released. Marcus Mender will come out in the fall. And (now that I can finish it!) Elektra Chaos will be out next spring!

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I wroweb-Billionlaires-Ballet-by-Deanna-Royte another book this spring, a standalone romance called The Billionaire’s Ballet. It’s a fun story, inspired by Sabrina, and a light summer read. Learn more about it at www.deannaroy.com/ballet

My Forever series hit a ridiculous number of books sold. It’s just awe-inspiring to me to see these books go. You guys write me every day about how the story impacted you, and your notes truly kept me going. The response to the video on the series was also just tremendous, and we’re at something crazy like 800,000 views on Facebook. Thank you.

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Here’s to being back in the world again, not just head down and slogging through immeasurable struggle.

 

Okay, this one’s gonna end in tears

In the summer of 2013, I had a problem. Kurt and I had just given up on getting pregnant and I had two surgeries in a row sealing the deal. No babies for us. Not biologically ours, anyway.

We started looking into adoption. We knew it was expensive. We were solid financially, but finding another $30k was gonna be tough.

I was still doing photography and had published a few books — Baby Dust was out, and did all right, but nothing that would pull in that kind of money. I wrote two romances but they flopped totally and went in the red.

I was fortunate at that time to make a couple really important friends. One was Mimi Strong, who I’d met on Kboards. Another was HM Ward, who had a similar background as me, photographer turned writer, and also lived in Texas.

Mimi had some big success with a billionaire series she had written and took me under her wing. We looked at my current fan base, all baby-loss moms, and where to go to expand. She told me new adult romances, set at college age, were the big thing.

Well, I had tried new adult already, twice, and those were flops. But she insisted I had done it wrong. So she coached me. Mimi made me sit down and come up with a college romance that hadn’t already been done but would have a very strong hook. Something only I could write.

Well, of course I knew what it had to be.

The character of Corabelle came first. Her baby had died. To make the story happen in college, she had to be a teen mother. Then Gavin, her boyfriend. He had to have something in his past that made him take off when the going got tough, even though he had loved Corabelle.

And I had to find a way to get them back together that wasn’t too hokey. And I had to keep them apart enough to make a book.

Into the fall we worked on the book, Mimi reading my work and telling me what I was doing wrong. When it came time for covers, Mimi was insistent I have the right look. We pored over images, trying to find something that wasn’t overused but still affordable since I had such a low budget (although the moment mine came out, the same image popped up everywhere.)

Here are the couples who didn’t make the cut (and I know what you’re thinking — no way any of those were Corabelle and Gavin!)

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We did everything we could think of for the book release. Blog tours. Goodreads giveaways. NetGalley. A book trailer. Mimi was pushing it out to her fans.

And it was doing much better than my other books. Way better. But after a week, it just started to dive. If it was over now, that was it. It would earn out its costs, which were a lot more than my other books had been, but that was about it. Kurt and I talked about me going ahead and going back to work, even though I’d have to quit when we got the children. But at least to earn the fees.

Then I took a wild chance. I knew HM Ward just a little bit. We’d messaged some. She was huge at the time. Just huge. Her Arrangement series was topping every chart. And I boldly asked if she would share my book with her fans.

She didn’t respond for two days. I thought, okay, I’ve overstepped. No way would she do a favor like that for someone she barely knew. I was a little embarrassed to have asked.

I remember going to a football game that night. My daughter was a freshman and marching at halftime. My parents were in town too, to see her. While we waited for them to come out, I pulled out my phone to see how much farther my book had fallen in rankings.

And almost fell out of my seat.

I had sold 1000 copies that day.

I frantically checked my messages, and sure enough, HM had sent a message. “Posted it. Think I sold a couple hundred. :)”

This visibility set off a chain reaction. The book didn’t fall. I hit #4 on iBooks. Top 50 BN. I came breathlessly close to the top 100 on Amazon.

Over 700 readers signed up for my mail list to find out about my next book. Everyone was asking — what’s it going to be?

And a big chorus was insisting — Corabelle and Gavin’s story isn’t over.

I sat down immediately to write Forever Loved. This book did just as well as Forever Innocent. Sell through was something crazy like 90%.

We had done it.

Now, two years later, we’ve come to the last book. The business changed a lot, and college romances fell out of favor. But I wrote a few more. A set of the first three books hit the USA Today bestseller list last January, a huge accomplishment. I couldn’t be more pleased with how it all went.

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I’d love to show you a picture of the two little boys who live with us now, but it’s not time yet. Just know that they are here, and that all you fans were instrumental in getting them here. And that putting this series to bed is like tucking in your child for the last time before they leave home. It’s hard.

But what a journey it’s been.

I will be writing a little more slowly now but plan to have a book out in May and a new series starting in the fall. You can stay in touch with me on the email list.

Enjoy the trailer. I have loved being on this road with all of you.

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Days that make the journey worth it

I take very little for granted these days.

I have two new boys now. They arrived last September. The first three months were really tough. Of course they would be. They’ve had a hard journey making their way to us. We only just turned the corner as a family a few weeks ago, in mid January, into something manageable.

So my own life was set aside for a while. That didn’t mean big things didn’t happen. This for one:

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Fight for Her hit the USA Today bestseller list in January at #116. This was my sixth time on the list — second time for my JJ Knight pen name.

I’m so grateful.

I didn’t get a chance to talk about it much, as we were in crisis at home. As so often happens when family comes first, even the big personal accomplishments get pushed aside.

But we’re getting there.

I’m not sure when I’ll introduce our new family to the world. Their safety will come first, even after they are adopted and I am legally free to let everyone see their adorable faces. But know they are here, and my life is far more multi-faceted than it ever was before. I’m not quite as available online or at book signing events as I once was.

If you do want me, the best place is my private Facebook group for book fans. I try to stop by every couple of days to say hello. Click to hop over to it.

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Forever Bound from the Forever series is here!

ForBoundIt’s been an amazing release for the fourth book of the series-that-I-never-thought-would-be-a-series.

We’ve come so far since that first tentative release of Forever Innocent in October 2013. My life is completely different because of these books!

In Forever Bound, Jenny gets her turn to tell her story. Her meeting with Chance, a singer-songwriter who is hitchhiking across the US, changes everything about her. She goes on a journey to find this mysterious man who was supposed to be just a one-night stand, but ends up being part of her forever.

The amazing Brad Whittington wrote the songs in the book and has even recorded the series Forever song. I hope you’ll go take a listen on his site!

If you missed the release, here are the links:

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